ah there is so much on my mind right now,

i havent written in this thing in what seems like forever

well alot is up, not so much down...

i am just sooo incredibly tired right now.. maybe i will take a nap

whats up been a while
lets go forth
life is ok after all..
I dont know..
as long as im hanging with friends im cool.
work is good...eh i can live without boys...or one boy...gosh they really suck
I made the coolest friend with the girl I work with in my classroom..shes awesome...I feel safe with her..shes got my back...one girlfriend of a friend of a good friend of mine..well lets cut it short.. "ben afflecks" new girlfriend found out that him and I still talk thru text messages and stuff and when she went thru his phone she found my number and started text messaging me..well i didnt do anything about it but when i was talking to emily about it she was like what?!  anyways after a little bit they were broken up...
emily is fucking amazing..
but so are all my friends :)
anyways
its almost 4am and I am watching Matilda..I just finished cleaning up from all my friends..I am house sitting till tomarrow. .
I cant wait to go home.. I miss the chaos
Tomarrow me and Emily are going to see Curious George..
So I just made a promise to my heart..
I promise to never hurt it..or talk to guys who will.
I cant take it and if I want to make counseling worth all the money it cost me and prevent myself from going back on Prozac..then I should listen to the darn thing thats inside of me and do as it says..
and stay away from him..the one guy I would take a bullet for..
it sucks..it hurts..but I cant cry..I cant take it.
none of my friends really know how I feel..latley I have just been shutting up about everything really.
I am beginning to love and love the girls I work with
Stefanie and Andrea and Ashley..
they are amazing..
simply stunning
Stefanie..is the most amazing..ever..she and Andrea are so talented with singing and so not afraid.. I think very highly of both of those AMAZING girls!!!
Ashley has such a big heart ..she is a wonderful person..and I just adore talking to her and seeing her everyday!!
aww I love you girlies!!!
Anyways there are other people I would talk about..like Kristie and Raquel..Kristie is my new idol..shes incredibly smart...and everything i would ever want to grow up to be like
and Raquel..I cant wait to corrupt your baby whom I know will be soooooo incredibly georgeous like his mom! ....well from the neck up that is...from the neck down he may just indeed look like his daddy!!

hahaha but only Raquel will know how that looks! ;)
hahahaha im funny.

Anyways....
thats about it for this entry..
just a peice of my heart that I am slowing rebuilding and promising not to hurt